I haven’t felt like this since I found out about Booth Brown and that I could live independently as a teenager. That I could liberate myself. It was the kind of do or die that reconciles life and death as a whole, that takes the dichotomy of “life versus death” survival and transmutes it into fearless consciousness. Where this vulnerable dance with danger and the un-gauranteed is the best life to live, and the only one we have.
I’ve been in Deep Dark a long time; it’s been my shadow and a friend.
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Yes, this really aligns with my exploration and direct experiences in my life and interacting with MOST of the people I’ve met. I see evidence of this epidemic every day. It flutters up in little moments, blinking through.
I’m at the point where I consider the child-parent cycles of abuse to be fundamentally entangled with the root of suffering in our species. To be entangled with pursuit of higher consciousness, or getting corrupted into unconsciousness. Correlated directly with what some people may call enlightenment itself.
So many people don’t care about each other and are hollow from isolation, yet this is a self-sustaining paradox. So often invisible. I see it very clearly, I see I could become hollow too. I don’t want to continue the cycle.
I’ve discovered, when old archaic illusions finally crumble, that doing nothing is a profound and shockingly painful choice- a pain that feels like unwilling death; a noble sacrifice quietly when instead you could be doing something toxic or evil.
Imagine if I were one less person leaving that imprint. A unique fingerprint that shows me as its author, author of spreading infectious harm and tragedy. I don’t have to do it again.
I keep looking around and the majority of both tragic and toxically destructive situations are caused by series of terrible, and blind decisions by regular people. I’ve yet to find evidence of willful evil, where someone would do it for its own sake. Even revenge has another motive; desperation for empathy – to feel their pain.
Gateways have remained pristine and closed; I will have to find another path. Maybe a path of letting go.
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An image captured my soul again;
it sold me to a demon I called my only friend
which tore out my heart and ripped me apart;
I said everything is as it should be
everything is as it should be
everything is as it will be,
in the end
Nemo | 7 May 2018
My ego can feel like almost entirely addictiveness, and it’s a prison. I realized today after getting hooked into that prison again, in my case the prison of computer addiction, that I would rather be in a “real” prison, physically, than to be in this prison within my body and deterministic reactions. What a terrifying recognition, a kind of fear that feels like love and honesty, that allows me to fall apart. Pema feels like a long time friend, who reminds me of gratitude.
Now is the best time to surrender, to surrender again and be present. Sometimes, this is called meditation.
12 Rules for Life by Dr. Jordan B. Peterson
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Unconditional Parenting by Alfie Kohn
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