erratic energy
going mad
going crazy
it’s not so bad
but it’s the frenzy
zingzingzingzing
I exPLODE
into fuzzy little specs
in a sunbeam
dream of dreams:
thick I run through
water and salt;
here I was born
it’s not my fault
recollecting my creation
a great sickness
purging a karmic death
and healing
I am the phoenix
is this the cliff running and LEAPING over the edge?
into deep dark
enlightenment?
I am the ocean
I snap and burn as kindling in my own fire;
I am the burning and the burning eats me
Learning to love the erratic ecstatic terror
trauma energy,
and ego shadow
no idea what’s happening to me
am I imprisoned
or am I free?
what to do?
no idea,
do nothing?
be here?
I must escape the tiger
seeking addiction yet
I see through the ruse
no hiding from the tiger,
when the tiger is the truth
